Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Cereal bars

The last couple of weeks I have been measuring my frustration by the number of cereal bars I eat.

I usually eat a cereal bar every morning before heading out to the gym.
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But lately I have been going through an entire week's supply in a couple of days.

Sometimes I wonder if my wife is happy only when I am not being true to myself.

She says things like "you are a gay man but you are married."

She use to say things like "you are either gay or married."

Which is to say that in some 30 years she has gone from gay is a choice to being married for a gay man should be no different than it is for a straight man.

I don't know if she believes this out of ignorance or because she is in denial or because she has to believe this or lose all hope.

I wish the drip, drip, drip of frustration was not eroding my soul like it does.

Which leads to where I am at now - I am tired.  I would like a day without frustration.

I am also out of patience and when I get impatient I start feeling sorry for myself.

So now I am mixing pity with frustration which leads to even more cereal bars.

And at a $1 a bar this is getting expensive.

Regards,
Philip

P.S.  Clif bars were my favorite for a long while but recently Luna Bars have beene making a comeback.  Yum.